I miss you

I Miss You

Even though you’ve been gone for over 2 years now

you are still missed.

The pangs of loss have lessened with

the passing of time

but you were gone a long time before

you physically left this world.

It stole you from us; that insidious monster

called Alzheimer’s.

Bit by bit by bit it took you.

Sadly, I cannot recall your voice

but I can still remember the softness of your skin

your beautiful white hair

and your smile when you ate chocolate.

I was going through some of your things the other day

because it is time to let them go.

Old bank slips, old medical bills, old pictures

and old memories.

Not all of them will be thrown away because

some remain very precious.

Like your old wallet that you

refused to replace; held together

with rubber bands.

Pictures from when you were happy and healthy

and knew everyone will be kept safe.

But I will also keep the ones where you no

longer remembered.

Those will just be stored at the bottom of the box

because they still hurt.

Flowers will be placed where your body rests

but your spirit will be celebrating up above.

Happy Birthday, Momma.

Mom birthday note

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19 Responses to I miss you

  1. smilecalm says:

    may she live on happily in your beautiful words, images and smile!

  2. bulldog says:

    May the memories continue to keep you happy and warm… lovely dedication to some one that was special to you… lovely…

  3. Tears,,,,Rest In Heaven Sweet Lady

  4. Jerry says:

    I can identify. However, upon being the one covering moms urn with the last shovel of dirt, I smiled and said out load, “Enjoy your next adventure mom”. Blessings to you Miss “T”.

    • Thank you and what a sweet thing to have said to your mom, Jerry.

    • Jerry says:

      I know too well the pain that a loved one, especially a parent with Alzheimer’s can inflict. I too know too well how it destroys the mind. My mother accused me of raping her. That cut me deeper than any known sharp object on the planet. I saw her suffer severely with the insidious dis-ease. After getting over the immense shock of Mom’s accusation, I realized, it was not her but the dis-ease. I watched Mom slowly leave her physical body as she lay in the nursing home for six months. It was a slow departure so I had time to prepare for her final footstep to the other side of true existence…life beyond pain and dis-ease. The place where every new journey begins. Mom’s roll on my life’s stage was played very well. There was a great applause as the curtain slowly came down, Mom left the stage, punched the time clock and went home to wait her next leading roll and supportive actor. How could I not say, “Enjoy your next adventure mom”. She is still with me every minute of my life. All I have to do is close my eyes. 😉

  5. Ingrid says:

    Oh, how sweet and lovely. My mom’s B Day would have been at the end of Feb and this was her second BDay since she passed…..so I can totally relate to the loss. Beautiful words 🙂

  6. ChgoJohn says:

    Such a loving memorial, Teri. May she forever rest in peace.

  7. etomczyk says:

    Wow! I can hardly breathe, Teri, and I can barely see the page through the tears. Your poem is so beautiful, and your love for your mother is as vibrant as the color of the flower you photographed. I found myself silently praying at the end of your salut to your mom a very selfish prayer: that God would spare my daughters the pain of walking this road with me. It is too painful for a child. Thank you for this beautiful tribute.

    • I don’t want anyone to go through this…caregiving or having the disease; having the disease is far worse but it is rough watching your loved one fade away bit by bit. I used to say her outside was there but who the heck knew what was inside. Thanks

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